How it feels when life gets heavy

Isi Bell
2 min readJan 13, 2020

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There are situations, circumstances in life,

they encase your body like a heavy coat, a coat, weighting thousands of kilos,

encasing your tiny, delicate body, resting painfully on your shoulders.

So heavy, you almost can’t stand it.

You try to scream, try to find somebody who relieves you,

who takes away this almost unbearable weight, the coat of heaviness,

in order to not collapse, in order to survive.

And while you’re striving to keep up with life,

while you’re trying to find salvation,

the coat, it starts to become tighter.

It becomes so tight, you can barely breath.

Why is this happening? Why is somebody doing this to your tiny, little body?

What have you done?

Heaviness in combination with tightness, it is making you dizzy,

making you unable to think about the why’s anymore.

Your only aim now is not to give up. To stay alive.

And the moment you stopped asking ‘why’, acceptence arose.

In the second of arosen acceptance, the coat is gone,

the heaviness, the tightness — it’s gone.

You’re able to breath again, and walking — walking feels like flying.

Maybe it is all a game.

A game to see how badly you really want to be alive.

How willingly you are to fight.

To fight in order to receive.

To receive the knowledge of how precious life is in times of lightness

and how necessary heaviness is to recognize the fineness of flying.

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Isi Bell
Isi Bell

Written by Isi Bell

Trying to put on paper what my soul offers. (GERMAN) HABITS/EGO/LIFE/SPIRITUALITY/LOVE/SELF

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